Not a Tear

I walked alone today

Turned the metal off for a while...

Just walked for a while

To listen to the silence I so fear

Crunch of gravel under my feet

I started to wonder

Who would cry, when it's my time to go?

Will there be lose that mourn me?

Sorrow and grief?

Somewhere I know deep inside

Each of us wonder the same thing

Here's how I picture my funeral

A soundless, barren progression

So few stare with blank eyes

At someone who there but they never knew

Deceased, can you see through my painted face?

Organs that do not function

Heart that does not beat

The blessing that welcomed me from pain

You don't know half of what I am

& never will

Will you shed a tear or two?

On my deathbed when it's empty of feeling?

Nobody in life to care.